The "Trouble" with knowledge

I'm busy being certified as an expert in "Sustainable Printing" which in itself, is a rather boring certification. However, there was a quote in the text book that really struck a chord in me...

"The trouble with knowledge is that it is not just power, it's responsibility. Once you know something, to behave in a way that suggests you don't is clearly dishonest and irresponsible."

Yikes! In the context of sustainable forestry -it is a powerful statement, but in the context of my life - it is overwhelming!

• I know what I need to do to be healthy
• I know what to eat to fuel my body in the most efficient way
• I know that when I make "poor" food choices, that my body hurts and it is detrimental to my weight loss goals
• I know that I need to exercise consistently
• I know that I need to be involved in a consistent time of study, reflection and prayer

If I agree with the statement above - and I do - then I'm acting irresponsibly and am dishonest. that is a verrrrrrrry uncomfortable place to be.

Now the question is, how do I continue to live with myself? Why don't I love myself enough to be honest and responsible?

Emptiness

"Maybe we should spend less time trying to fill emptiness and more time trying to feel emptiness. Maybe that's where there's healing."

hmm, read this on on another website today. This gets back to BK's theory about embracing your pain. "...it is so essential to any personal growth - emotional, spiritual, physically. There is no maturing in Christ with embracing pain. There is no lasting change without embracing pain."

How do you go about that? You find the areas (subject, memories, relationships) that make you cry, grieve, angry - or any other feeling. Stick to the yucky feelings since those are the ones you are after to heal.

The hard part is that ALL healing requires pain - and I don't like pain. I just need to remember that I no longer need to be anesthetized. I can stand still and feel my feelings.

This is the process that I need to go through on my weight loss journey. Understand what "shapes" the weight. What do I need to feel? To ask myself "am I hungry, OR am I feeding something else?"

• To remember to eat when I'm hungry
• Stop when I'm full
• DON'T eat feelings
• Food is fuel - NOT love

Baby steps...

Sometimes I berate myself for being such a "baby" and being so disappointed in myself in not being where I "want" to be right now.

But - if I look at how persistent a baby is in learning how to walk,
I realize that it's not so bad… I just need to emulate the baby in the process…

I start,

I stand up,

I wobble,

I fall,

I pick myself up

...and start the whole process over again.

Here's to baby steps - and FINALLY learning how to walk.

Really, Oprah????

Argh! MBF (my best friend) told me that "What I know for sure" is the title of Oprah's last page column in the magazine.

Now, I should know this - I'm a HUGE O Magazine fan - but really, it's MY IDEA and has been for years. I know that I didn't steal it from her. Do I really have to change the title now?

Votes from people I have talked to about this very serious issue? NO WAY! It is very personal - cause of Dad - and I'm not taking anything from her at all.

So - I guess that it stays.

Why I chose this title for my blog

All my life, when my dad would call, he'd say "Hi - what do you know for sure?" It has always stopped me - and made me think... what DO I know for sure?

This blog will be a place that I can write about things that I

• KNOW for sure


• WANT to know for sure


• THINK I know for sure